Once upon a time, I couldn’t get out of bed no matter how hard I tried, until about 5pm. The first time I got out of bed at 3pm, I made phone calls to celebrate! I no longer have that difficulty. Not physically anyway. Instead I wake up and feel overwhelmed by the day. Then it becomes hard to get up for … emotional reasons.
A similar thing happened with showering. At the beginning of CFS, I would power through it but I often ran out of strength in the middle which created all kinds of problems. Showers aren’t physically that hard anymore. But it seems the experience from the past left a neural pattern behind in my brain that says, “Danger! Don’t get in that shower!!”
Based on what I’ve read, this is common in CFS/FMS. The condition creates its own trauma which becomes more difficult to resolve than the original trigger. So the memo reminder you see here will be posted tonight on the wall near my bed, where I would see it as soon as I wake up. It should help me stay in the moment and keep the morning overwhelm away.
RELEVANT REALITYNIBS LINKS: This is one of the experiences that helped me learn to pace myself and make the best use of the energy I’ve regained.
WEGO PROMPT FOR THIS POST: Visit http://thingsweforget.blogspot.co.uk/ and make your own version of a short memo reminder. Where would you post it?