Once upon a time, I couldn’t get out of bed no matter how hard I tried, until about 5pm. The first time I got out of bed at 3pm, I made phone calls to celebrate! I no longer have that difficulty. Not physically anyway. Instead I wake up and feel overwhelmed by the day. Then it becomes hard to get up for … emotional reasons.

A similar thing happened with showering. At the beginning of CFS, I would power through it but I often ran out of strength in the middle which created all kinds of problems. Showers aren’t physically that hard anymore. But it seems the experience from the past left a neural pattern behind in my brain that says, “Danger! Don’t get in that shower!!”  Continue reading →

A Medical Cure for Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. Finally!

******WARNING. This is a fake news article. WARNING******

“It’s a miracle,” Sage said. “I’m sleeping easily, deeply every night then waking up rested and refreshed. And I’m not taking any of the nine prescriptions and supplements I used to need to get any sleep at all.”

Over the last two weeks, this reporter has heard similar comments from many former Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia patients across California. “I can take care of my children again.” Or, “I have gotten out of bed every morning for the last month, done the things I chose to do, gone to sleep and then happily woken up the next day to do it all again.” And, “My body is pain-free and flexible again. I’ve missed yoga!”

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The story of the five people I’d like to have dinner with, living or dead, is about the different aspects of life I want to experience through them. This is a tall order because I don’t just want to learn, I want to have a ton of fun!

So once my five guests are seated, I would start by asking M. Scott Peck for the best way that we might come together as a community for the evening. He may suggest taking turns having each person say something on their mind, in a non-judgmental space. No responses, we all just listen to each other. After multiple rounds for about half an hour, Oprah Winfrey might giggle in the delicious, supportive air we’ve just created and ask, “What is your intention tonight Bola? What would you like to see happen?”  Continue reading →

I need help with something that happened today. Right now. And I know someone who can help me. There’s a 99% chance that if I sent him a message he would say, sure.

But I’d rather die.

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Writing is essentially a midwifing process for me. In each case, a post is born. Other than that, each one happens differently. Sometimes, I just have to figure out the first sentence. Then I type it straight into my blogging software and after that my fingers just keep moving. Next thing you know, I have a post.

Other times, I plan a series. What do I want to say? How many posts do I need? Then it’s weeks of automatic writing.  Continue reading →